20 June, 2016

Tiger Stripes & Cellulite

If you had told me 10 years ago (when I was 16) that at 350 lbs I would be buying my first bikini EVER, I would have laughed and called you a liar. Because who would have ever thought, and I mean EVER, that at 26 and at my heaviest weight that I would finally love the body I'm in. 

 I didn't see this coming, a year and half ago when Mr. Bear and I began couple's therapy, where we eventually split and began personal therapy, this hadn't been the goal. This is however, the best byproduct of that decision. Our marriage is great, but my soul is alive and healthier than I could have ever imagined it to be. 

Last week, I went up to my local plus size store, Torrid, and my favorite store did not disappoint in supplying me with a high waisted bikini that made me feel soooooo comfortable. In fact, I love how I feel in it. Yes you can see stretch marks, my thick thighs, my fat arms and I need a tan so bad I'm blinding, but I don't hate the body that's wearing it. 

 Now I'm not saying I LOVE my body, there are a lot of things I would change, and I'm getting there, but I don't hate it, and I'm certainly NOT ashamed of it. No more of that. 

Because my body holds my incredible soul in, all of my amazingness is contained inside this body. My body DOES NOT fail to get me from point A to point B. While it doesn't always do what I want, hello the super skinny people with peak metabolism I'm looking at you, but up unto this point it has not failed me. 

My body is the visual representation of me, but it does NOT define me. My character, my traits, my heart and my soul they're what define me. Think of your favorite book (mine is Harry Potter, clearly) the chapter art, while beautiful does not define the story, it may offer a glimpse at what's inside the book, but it's not the story. The beautiful words, that bring laughter and tears, happiness and heartbreak are inside. I am a book. My cover does give you a glimpse at who I am, at what I struggle with and where my heartbreak is, my tattoos will tell you some of my story, but my body does NOT define me. 

So when you look at your body and you think, it's not what I want. My hair isn't pretty, my stomach is too big, my thighs are touching, my chest is small, I have too many pimples, or anything else, remember this is your body. It has carried you through the hardest and the best of times you'll ever have, and all it is, is the container for the beauty that is you. 

Yes, you can work out and eat right to make it more beautiful, but changing your body doesn't change your character. Working out and eating right may make you more determined and disciplined but that's a change to your character, not to your body. Cut your body a break, it's beautiful. 

If my 350 lb body, can rock a bikini, please allow your tiger stripes and cellulite to rock one, too. It may not be the body you had before kids, but it has grown humans, and that's an amazing thing.

Please enjoy some of the awesome body positive quotes I've added below. 

1 comment :

  1. I really needed this today, thank you. Also, you after rocking the crap outta that bikini.


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